sometimes i feel like i am suspended in mid air and someone has tied strings to my limbs and is controlling all my actions. i don't know why i do the things i do. they just happen. its like i can't make myself do what i know i need to do, but i do the things i know i shouldn't. yeahh i know its all my fault. oh well.

a girl that graduated class of '11 died yesterday. i didn't know her. i don't know the details. i just know she overdosed. lifes to short. my heart hurts.