okay heres my new years bit.

so much has happened. i typed this big long note on my ipod 2 nights ago about '10 but i don't feel it is appropriate to put on a public blog. this year has held heartbreak. loss. deception. its been filled to the brim with tears. but i think those were overcome with happiness. though there was loss, we found something that would've never been found in any other way. we experienced something that brought us closer than we ever could've been with out it. we have missed things. not done things the traditional way, but we've become new. refreshed. better. and it will continue to grow and get even better. and that is all.

today i woke up at 12:30. listened to music. stalked people on facebook. did the dishes. brought wii fit downstairs but didn't do anything with it. listened to more music. threw my dogs toy and watched him chase after it and run into a wall [ha]. i've been oh so productive, i know. and now i'm supposed to write a confession. about what? there is nothing significant in my life that anyone could be possibly interested in. oh well.

Day 10

1. i am satisfied with my oh so boring life. and am happy about it. bamm

okay so i just got back from shopping with mary beth and we didn't kill each other! it was actually kind of funn. i got a really cute belt that has a shiny belt buckle on it and a long sleeve shirt for 2 dollars (because my mom gave me $20 kohls cash for Christmas). i guess we're going to church tonight, and whoo knowss what we're doin for new years. yayy

Day 9

1. ;)
2. :P

I had a very long and interesting conversation with some one i hardly talk to anymore. i think thats one of my favorite things to do...talk to an old friend about memories that make you laugh out loud. if only we could replay those.

Day 8

1. laughter. it fuels the soul ----oooooh deeeeep(:
2. ^^long conversations that aren't about nothing. they make my heart flutterr.
3. humbleness. being able to admit you're wrong.

Today i have done absolutley nothing and its been sooo great(: i watched dispicable me and played pointless games on my ipod(: we're going out to eat in downtown charlotte tonight and then to the bobcats game. they probably won't win, but it'll still be fun(:

Day 7

1. drugs of any kind. especially dipping. ew!
2. northern accents get on my nerves. i don't know whyy.
3. not telling the whole truth.
4. talking about yourself all the time. sometimes in perfectly fine, i like hearing about others and stuff, but when thats the main subject 24/7 i can't stand it.

Christmas went by so fast! it was soo much fun(: part of me is glad that the stress of it is over, but i always wish i could have the excitement back.
 i got

•  an ipod touch(((:
• toy story 3
• an art set. don't know what i'll do with it yet, but i'll figure something out
• a fossil purse (very cute!)
• a purple sweater
• $25 target gift card
• $20 khols cash
• pajamas (wearing them right now!)
• Banana Grams (best game everrrr)
• 3 rings, a hat and a scarf
• body wash and a lufa
• chocolate
• 3 pairs of earings
• a spatula(: [a prankk gift]
• a cookbook
• a french coffe maker [the maker part is french. not the coffe]
• itunes gift cards
• annnnd probably some more stuff that i cant remember lol(:

all in all it was a great Christmas, especially because we got snow!!

Day 5

1. opened up to them.
2. told her my secret.
3. ate all those cranberries.
4. said something before thinking.
5. waited.
6. gave him a chance.

andd Day 6 since i missed yesterday

1.  My parents [of course]
2. Patty Maness
3. The Bruces
4. My grandparents
5. The Ludwigs

Today is Christmas eve! tonight we're going to a christmas eve service for the first time and i have been recruited to read luke 2 to the congregation. i'm hoping that not many people show up. i'm soo excited about tomorrow! for once i don't have any clue what i'm getting. by now i've usually seen or figured out whats in all the boxes, but this year i just can't. excitinggg(:

Day 4

1. what was i just doing?
2. will you please be quiet.
3. whatd i do with my phone?
4. i need to write that down.
5. is it really that time already?
6. why havn't they texted me?
7. i need to get off the computer.

Merry Christmas 'Adam'! people put that on facebook and i've never heard it before and its funny and yaya and i'm about to go see my best friend for the first time in a while and i'm excited and heres day 3(:

Day 3

1. Keep a conversation going with out filling it with empty words. talk about intelligent things.
2. make me laugh. not just giggle awkwardly.
3. make me something and don't tell anyone else about it. i hate when guys do stuff just to get 'brownie points'
4. sing me a song. even if your tone deaf. i love in 'the last song' when they're ridin in the truck singing(: too cute!
5. talk to my parents. they're not scary, just intimidating. dont try to hide from them.
6. tell me i'm beautiful and mean it.
7. be happy when i'm not, and don't expect me to be happy back. i don't expect any one but me to understand this. but yeah.
8. don't be afraid to do something unexpected(:

yay! first day of Christmas break and i'm up at 9:30, but thats okay. i'll have more of the day to spend time doing nothing!! wahoo.

Day Two

1. i love music (especially Chrismas music, which i'm listening to currently :D)
2. i love getting random texts that are just to make me happy.
3. i love sending texts that are just to make someone happy.
4. i am going to marry david archuleta one day.
5. i like listening to others problems, because they're so crazy sometimes, but i'm not good at giving advice.
6. i believe that every Christmas should be white. but it never seems to happen.
7. i love to laugh, but sometimes i can't stop laughing. and then i don't like it so much.
8. i love to cry too. especailly with a group of my best friends about something that means a lot to all of us.
9. i love winter! and i can't get over how its only 3 days till Christmas! sooo so crazyyyy(:

i love you!

i'm stealing this from mikaella who stole it from a person named sara. so thank you sara for giving me something to blog about(:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order).

Day Seven: Four turn-offs.

Day Eight: Three turn-ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

        Day One

1. If you ever left me i don't know what i'd do.
2.  thanks you for bringing me that box. i meant to tell you merry christmas but it slipped my mind.
3. Please just be yourself. no one cares about that but you.
4. thank you so much. you give to much up for me.
5. please just talk to me. it kills me to walk past when you don't.
6. i don't mean to be so brutal. its just that i know you can do better, yet you don't.
7. yeah, i do love you. but not like that. stop texting me so much.
8. dont leave me. i dont seem to mind, but i dont know what id do with out you.
9. how could you do this to all of us? do you not feel even a little guilty?
10. i miss you and love you and hope that you have a merry christmas.

so i got out of school early to go wish my sister happy birthday! the big 2-1. shes getting old.

tomorrows the deca compitition. its a club, dont ask what we do. to tell ya the truth i dont really know. i'm kinda freakin out though cause i havn't been to the meetings and i dont have any friends that are in it. i dont want to be the weirdo walkin around by herself tomorrow. or sitting on the bus alone :P pray some quick friends would be really nice!!